The journeys for the SOUL - Part 1

2nd Ramadhan, I'm home @ amazing Jakarta! Stay at my imut small rent room, try to get use of this. It's Sunday, the weather a bit hot, no plan to go anywhere yet! Just be home.. relaxing.. and search some good songs for the soul.. see time passing so fast.. just last year I was in AFG.. last Ramadhan I was in Nimroz and Laskhar Gah.. AHGGGGG.. do I miss there! Hmmm.. eventually I found good song! Opick the singer - Labbaik Allahumma Labbaik..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XJs4JzKWIic&feature=related

For my soul this song is really really Good; 
Oh GOD, we come to meet your summons, there is not ally for you, all praise and surrender to YOU. GOD we felt no light, forgeten and despised.. Perfect in beauty in front of YOU.. who all-glorious in front of YOU..

Labbaik Allah Humma Labbaik
Labbaik Allah Shareeka laka Labbaik

Innal hamda, wa ni'mata lak
Wal mulka laak shareeka lak

Wahai Allah, kami datang
memenuhi panggilanmu,
tiada lah sekutu untukmu
segala fuji dan pasrah untukmu

kami meraba tanpa cahaya
kami yang lupa, hina dan papah
dihadapanmu yg maha indah
dihadapanmu yg maha mulia

Labbaik Allah Humma Labbaik
Labbaik Allah Shareeka laka Labbaik
Innal Hamda, wa ni'mata lak
Wal Mulka lak Shareeka Lak

Labbaik Allah Humma Labbaik
Labbaik Allah Shareeka laka Labbaik
Innal Hamda, wa ni'mata lak
Wal Mulka lak Shareeka Lak


Labbaik Allah Humma Labbaik
Labbaik Allah Shareeka laka Labbaik
Innal Hamda, wa ni'mata lak
Wal Mulka lak Shareeka Lak

source: from mbah google :)

D D D ... Anger Messages

Just a reflection from a friend !

My dear friend, told you already don't hate me so much! It's not good just wasting our energy and create anger, pain and sorrow. After a long time I being silence friend for some reasons! It's starting again with a message!

Salam, How are you? I just back from my umroh; for 12days in Mekah; Your face shadowing my eyes and I prays for you there. it's nice being there and everything run smoothly.....

I felt touching, still have somebody called " a friend " remembered and prays for me! I felt happy to her also for the chance she have to see the Baitullah.. ! then.. I reply the message! 

My dear friend, many thanks for your prays for good things, and your thoughs on me. Please forgive and forget me yeah, it's not good my face shadowing your though during your umroh at Baitullah. I'm not the right one for you, so we should stop this yeah.. okay - G'nite. Was.

On spot my lovely friend return the answer:
Dear friend, not only you appears to me so whosever appears to me I pray for them. I also know that I'm also not suitable for you and I don't expect anything in returns for you. I can accept your maaf but I don't dislike the way you treat your friend so rudely. Thanks and bye!

Then another sms later:
If you don't want me to be your friend anymore. I will acccept it on your requests. Please don't have negative thoughts on me.

The next day, another shorts message which still I can feel the sorrow and anger on it:

Salam, just want to let you know that I didn't said that you are the right one for me and please don't simply blame me for crazyier over you. I don't have that thoughts. So, please stop over this nonsense. I can forget you totally, what for to have a friend like you, who do not know how to appreciate friendship sincerely, You are a master's holder but you don't look like one the way you think and do things. Otak you terlalu sempit. Sorry to let you know this. I can forget you as you requested but I still have my rights to be close to your nices and the rest. Please dont' think that you are that so great. You are not my only friends...

The messages attack awakeing me, trying to introspection myself and this friend, where is the not right one! The message still in my phone! I still read it sometimes, try to understand myself and query my self if her judge on me as it's . Hmmm.. It's .. I don't know! NOT SURE! and I don't like these message killing my days.. thought it's just an anger and bulshit message! Yeah..I don't need to reply this...

Damn Damn Damn.. I wish you are here.. here.. here... DAMN DAMN DAMN.. I wish you are near NEAR NEAR.. (Avril Lavigne.. good song huh)

Reminiscence of AFG

REMINISCENCE OF AFG

6 Months already over since I leave Afghanistan, no more “Tsengga ye.. Kamal” “Jodie..pakare.”. and sincere smiles of Afghan buddies surrounding. Do I miss them? the city of LKG that I never explored yet. The Helmand River which I never swim, even though dipping my legs on it to feel how the water is? The chef who always serve my food with some story about the Afghan customs, his family etc.. or all my colleagues, the security etc.. and the future leader of AFG – Abdul Hai.. who still fight to achieve his goal to continue his study.. Oh.. God.. though I do miss them..yeah I do.!

A friend made comment in my FB, while he saw one of my photos! He commented “Reminiscence of LKG – miles away”.. I don’t understand the word at the first, so thanks to dictionary online that I found the meaning of the word. I’m smiling and laughing by myself.. see buddy, u successfully make me laughing.

My memory back the journey while I was in Afghanistan, Helmand, Nimroz, Kabul.. the people, the works, colleagues, boss, friends, views, atmosphere, food, fruits, the dog.., Hmmm.. all sounds interesting and nice memory, except for the crazy misaddress email and some political in work.. but those all still manageable.. and I though that I should be back there!

Reminiscence of AFG, always good and fun that They remain fresh in my memory, if I’m missing them I just go to my blog. review my photos collection and talk online to some friends who still there.  Miles away my friend.. but close in my hearth...see you again around.. “Tsengga Ye”.. “Jodie”  “Pa kare “ – piye kabare  (APA KABAR) ?

Car-Free Day to Monas

Today 2nd car-free day for end week of the month in Jakarta..

I woke up earlier this morning want to do jogging and walking relaxly from the HI cycle to Monas. I live in Jakarta, but I may counting how many times I already visited Monas (National monument).. hehehe, not a lot.. just a few time.

I am ready to do my walking at 6am, starting from bundaran HI.. go ahead to my destiny at Monas. The crowd starting already, many peoples doing the same, walking, running and pedaling their bike to the MONAS.

About half hour arrived in Monas already.. many peoples there, just doing some sport activities, and some stages for functions. None pay my attention so much, I just read their t'shirt writing STOP TB! Long Life ALIVE..etc.. my route just do one round of this history monument. Crowded surrounded, many peoples do the same, walking, jogging, relaxing, taking photos, doing business selling some food and drinks, souveniers, t-shirt monas.. etc.. etc.

In another half hour I complete my 1st round of the monument and taking some photos. I'm get ready to go home for my breakfast. Another half hour walk.. I said.. no problem I like walking today as it's car free day on the route to my home.. It's nice beautiful weather, warm and I'm sweating a bit.. just a bit.. as I don't push myself to exercise a lot.. I'ts a relaxing day for me.. I prefer to provide food for my though.. am I hungry ? :)

My Edu - Ugh Ugh AGHHHH

My education was dark, no where.. lost its way.. blurrrrrb.. gelapppppp ahggggggggggggg!

I am stuck, confused, there is no progress with my study!! loss of idea, direction.. and lack of motivation. AHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. BBBBBBHHHHHHHHHHHHG... CHGGGGGGGGGGG... AGHGHHHHHHHHHHH.. should I shoted again?

I'm trying to evaluate all this zero progress of my education... i really really blank.. and dismotivated. Since from Afghanistan.. I didn't touch and start my proposal.. i leave them in my campuz.. in Penang beach.. Aghhhhhhhhh.. againAhGGGGGGGGGGG ..AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

For sure I was so shame to greet my classmate and discuss my problems with my supervisor lecture. Now two years already, and I am still have same one page unclear problem statement! still same with before.. even though before much better.. I have a bit little shine what I am going to write in my research proposal.. But nowadays all vanished, no more little light.. all dark.. gelappppp ahggh... ahggg... and I give up with my study!

Is that so easy I gave up ? I'm questioning myself.. ! Why, why, why.. you believe many ways to go to ROME.. so, why so easy I gave up ? I can't find the answer to myself.. I blame mostly on myself, that I'm not really focus and fight enough to get my dream! that I'm Lazy.. lz lz zzzzz .. and the condition that also make me not possible to fulfill my dream.. ahggggggg it's just my reason.. I tried to blame anything.. not good yeah! it's not good..

Though, nevermind the past has been forgotten. Now I am trying to accummulated piece by piece of my enthuasism to accomplish my study, to make some changes and to pursue my dream. Am I able GOD?

Be SAFE joint SAFE

ONE Month later from Afghan to Jakarta!

One month being holiday after completing my assignment with CADG.. I spent days in Indonesia - Medan and Jakarta. Meeting family's members, and some old friends in Medan.

As I arrived in JKT's airport, I was waiting for my next flight to Medan. I use the airport lounge facilities from my cards.. see how nice and powerful is this plastic card! I can have some relaxing time there after 12hours on flight, emailing, eating and drinks some nice food.

I was checking my FB, and ym.. and chatting with my exs colleagues. She said her organization now looking for an employee, so asked me if I'm interested to rejoint them. It is USAID's funding project also called SAFE.. I directly said that I do do DO DO.. yes.. I'm interested.. Thanks.. friend.. you are the HEROIN.. :) hehehe

She still don't believe that and think that I'm joking to rejoint them. I told them that I am seriously finding the new jobs now and that I will be happy to rejoint DAI again. Next to show how interested I am, I sent my update CV's and application.. to the manager! Next things to do is need to wait.. if the donor agreed to re-hired me.

It's take about 2-3 weeks to get the approval, eventually the donor approved, and asked me when I would like to start to work! I said 1st November will be great time for me! Then I still have some lazy times and preparation for back to work in the amazing city JAKARTA.

One month over now, so fast, so I'm already get employed to new project called "SAFE".. to be SAFE you may joint our project.. SAFE projects.. :) :)

I am Welcoming myself to amazing JAKARTA.. and said good bye to the unforgettable Afghanistan.. Laskhar Gah.. Nimroz.. Kandahar and Kabul... all those place still in my mind.. and the lovely Afhan's people.. part of my hearth still there.. I'm not fully in Jakarta.. though..

Hehehe.. gilaaaaaaaaa! crazyyyyyyy.. Lebanee.. .. how come I am missing there!! I just prays and hope that all the peoples in Afghanistan to be SAFE also.. Insya Allah!

9 Months ago B4 and After

Flash back 9 months ago in Penang...

January 2011, about 9 Months ago I was so excited as I got a new job with my new assignment in Afghanistan. Many refusal from some good friends try to convince me that it's not good place for living.

I searched in mbah google in order to be familiar how is it working and living in Afghanistan. Anyway, my willpower very intense, so whatever and however I'm ready to take the risks and back to work. I have no worried and doubt at all about how danger is it my working environment would be. I just feeling delighted.

Though I can continue my journeys to see another country and live here for 9months is not a long time.. though.. it's only 9months contract.. so why don't I grasp this rare opportunities, added with some other things then I firmly considered to accept this offer..

After 9Months .. in Laskhar Gah - Helmand Province of Kabul..

Nine months passed so fast! Now I'm counting the remaining of my days here in Helmand.. within this two days I'll go to Kabul then continue my trip back home.. to Indonesia. It's look miracles that we can survive until end of our assignments in Afghanistan. The three musketeers have decided not to continue our service with this organization. Each of us got some personal reasons and we will on board together on the same flight this 29th Sept to get home soon! We did our packing already and just be prepared to wait our flight to Kabul.


What do I learn within this 9 months? I'm queries myself ? How do I felt about my organization? The fact that I gained life experiences at the conflict area! Within 9months, I travelled, floated at 3 differents places only (Kabul - Zaranj and Laskhar Gah). living at the later place in Laskhar Gah, I may say it's like in jail, a big jail - in a big nice compound.. that They said, I can't get out my compound, that's too danger, so many taliban.. it's not good.. bla bla bla bla.. it's suck! it's really suck!!..


I did experience to heard 4 times bom exploded, followed with gun fighting.. from my compound.. for 1st and 2nd times it was made me shock and worried.. but further it will be sounds common.. normal.. I just be alert that.. oh.. yeah I'm in Afghanistan.. in Helmand.. the twin sister province of Kandahar.. so.. Yeah I passed over this kind of experiences.. but Thanks God, we still protected.. so far all still well and fine.. fine.. Alhamdulillah..


9 Months after.. we are get ready to our home, to see our family and back to Indonesia.. Jakarta we are return.. ke Jakarta ku kembali.. but I'll go to Medan first mate :) ! All rite friends, looking foward to hear your story on board.. see you in Kabul soon.. Dubai.. and Amazing Jakarta!