My education was dark, no where.. lost its way.. blurrrrrb.. gelapppppp ahggggggggggggg!
I am stuck, confused, there is no progress with my study!! loss of idea, direction.. and lack of motivation. AHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. BBBBBBHHHHHHHHHHHHG... CHGGGGGGGGGGG... AGHGHHHHHHHHHHH.. should I shoted again?
I'm trying to evaluate all this zero progress of my education... i really really blank.. and dismotivated. Since from Afghanistan.. I didn't touch and start my proposal.. i leave them in my campuz.. in Penang beach.. Aghhhhhhhhh.. againAhGGGGGGGGGGG ..AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
For sure I was so shame to greet my classmate and discuss my problems with my supervisor lecture. Now two years already, and I am still have same one page unclear problem statement! still same with before.. even though before much better.. I have a bit little shine what I am going to write in my research proposal.. But nowadays all vanished, no more little light.. all dark.. gelappppp ahggh... ahggg... and I give up with my study!
Is that so easy I gave up ? I'm questioning myself.. ! Why, why, why.. you believe many ways to go to ROME.. so, why so easy I gave up ? I can't find the answer to myself.. I blame mostly on myself, that I'm not really focus and fight enough to get my dream! that I'm Lazy.. lz lz zzzzz .. and the condition that also make me not possible to fulfill my dream.. ahggggggg it's just my reason.. I tried to blame anything.. not good yeah! it's not good..
Though, nevermind the past has been forgotten. Now I am trying to accummulated piece by piece of my enthuasism to accomplish my study, to make some changes and to pursue my dream. Am I able GOD?
